Graduating is like receiving an enlistment letter.
Not that I’ve received one before (just a figure of speech) - it is one that you would expect to come in the mail one day, but in the event of its arrival, you would hardly come to embrace it with open arms. More than just it being an indication that you may have to venture into something entirely new very soon, it means that you have passed a testing of some sort. But in my case, graduating means that a humongous test called the A levels is slowly creeping up on me. I know not what to expect, yet I still dangerously expect so much that I unknowingly look back to the past for that little bit of moral support…
“At least you have made it through the past 7 years, why not have the courage to look uncertainty and fear in the eye now?” is what I often find myself asking…myself in these recent days.

Hence, I would say that today’s graduation ceremony felt unsurprisingly surreal to me; amidst the mixture of feelings (20% joy, 20% awkwardness, 40% apprehension, 20% sorrow) I remembered feeling like I was living in a day of someone else’s life.
Graduation has eluded me for far too long (lol), to the point that I thought that day might have never arrived at all.

But I guess graduating is a call for celebration; after all, who looks at what happened in the past, or even the present for that matter, in occasions of such nature? Graduation is about eagerly expecting what is to come after the end of a chapter. And it calls us to look ahead and only look back to reminisce beautiful memories and to revisit the many places where we fell but stood up again.

So to the people who were with me every day of the past 2 years of my life (you probably won’t even realize I’m talking about you):
Thank you.
I am appreciative and extremely grateful to you, as to how you seamlessly created the environment for me to integrate into, with just the right amount on each side of the balance beam. Although I bet that the nuances of your unconditional acceptance were probably not intentional, I am blessed by any action made. I may have felt welcomed, I may have felt alone; yet I am thankful for all the moments because you have truly contributed so much to my growth and development as a person.
I apologize, as well, for all those times when I was seemingly ‘lost in transition’. It was also through those times that I refuse to budge and declined to open my heart that I truly see that how without knowledge, your love can still be so agape.
As much as you think I’m going to disappear from the face of the earth after this all ends, I won’t because “I just like being a piece of furniture in your weird life (lives)” (Juno, 2007) and I am here to stay in your lives just like how you have always been a constant in mine.

Graduating, it is with pride that I say that I am going to do so with trust in Him. I took the first step 2 years ago trusting in Him, and I am going to graduate and move on to the next chapter of my life trusting in Him as well. I can’t say that I am not worried at all, but I daresay that through it all, I’ve learned to trust in His plans for me. Because wherever He intends for me to go, I’ll be there one day.

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MY LOVE FOR RUGS AND PRINTS!!!
This is so cosily pretty <333

I must must must take time to write down all my learnings.

These past few months have been quite a ride for me, I would say.
Aside from the fact that the big As is coming in a month’s time, this hiatus from my responsibilities and the apparent lack of “happening” activities in my life seem to be somewhat like a vacation to me - a journey of self discovery.
Albeit most definitely not one that I chose to take initially (in fact I felt that it was forced upon me), I’ve come to realize the importance of taking time off to truly face yourself…and the Lord, of course.
If I were to describe this figuratively, I guess I would say that I embarked on this journey with just myself and the most important book of my life; bringing no one and nothing else with me.
Many a time, I would find myself reflecting again and again on so many facets, angles, perspectives, aspects of my life, or life for that matter.
Of course, not in all instances did I step out of my bubble feeling positively empowered, motivated or comforted, yet I know in all these up and downs (which probably won’t be that evident because the roller-coaster ride was in my puny little brain most of the time), the Lord is sovereign, and moulding this flawed character of mine.
For that, and not for anything else, I choose to be humble in acknowledging His discipline, and I choose to be thankful in recognizing that in all these, He loves me deeply.

And so, pardon me while I continue traveling.
But rest assured; I will come back with a suitcase of renewed spirit and conviction, hopefully wisdom, and of course, as a person who has been tested and proven. :) 

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